回来的第一次

已经很久没有写部落格了。 现在又写会，真的有一点不习惯。 谁不知道，分手后，很难可以再做朋友。 可是，很难是否表示不可以呢？ 不是吧。 人人都说我分手是我的错，说真的，我不否认，但不代表我承认这完全是我的过错。 试问自己，你那是时开的玩笑。对我来说到底有没有伤害了我。 我很尽力的挽救我们的友情。但是，你无法忘记。 在这一年的时间里。我忍受了无数人的讥讽，怒骂，鄙视。 我仍不忘记，我曾经在这段情中付出，及关怀。 只求有一天，我们可以再对话。 与你她分手后的日子。我已经习惯了失恋后，要很快的把自己处于安稳的状态。 在中六的日子，认识了新一个你。 也是我现在的女朋友。 真的，你比其他我认识的，思想都来的成熟。 甚至我觉得，有时候我像一个小孩子似的。 有你的关怀，照顾。我觉得很幸福。 和你经历了中六最难过的日子。考试，检讨会，STPM。。。 你的安慰，每一句话，都激起我，为了我们未来的路，我一定要做的得好。 和你在一起已经七个月了。 说长不长，说短不短。 与你在一起的时间都是开心的。 每一次的约定，虽然很难，但都是珍贵的。 物以稀为贵嘛！ 我知道，我们将会面对很难的问题。 但我坚信，只要肯努力，坚持。 一定可以的。记得，是两人的坚持。 我相信，我们能做得到。 你相信吗？ 真希望你能看得到。 你的番薯。。。。我的芋头。。。。 我们一起创造我们的年糕天地。

i m back.

finally...
i m here again to express my feeling..
i m stress.. sad.. emo..
all these things are back to me again..
n i m really back.. the real me.. the emoness, negatively thinker..
this is so sad...
i think i lost a fren.. i disappoint her for thousand time..
n finally she gv up on me..
haha..
shuldnt blame anyone.
i m the one who really make mistake this time..
this is nt a reason for me to be like that..
i noe that my weakness..
i trying to overcome it.. i m trying to solve it so that i can change myself totally..
bt too bad.. i cant.. even u started to feel annoy..
n i will still held by the FIRST her..
i still cant let go..
mayb u r right..
haha.
my life is so funny!!!

-engleong-

the unimportant one.

its time to blog again..
means i m still emo. haha
i juz cant stand it anymore..
y m i falling deeply n nvr pull myself up..
ya. i m suffer..
i really cant accept that i will be falling for a u.
which is the most wrong thing that i ever did in my life..
i promised.. nt to be the third party..
i wont. n i really wont.
bt y cant things juz go smooth and normal like how i treated u be4 he came back to KL??
i really feel happy at this moment..
i nvr request for anything.
juz wish to be with u.. study together with u.
hang out together with u..
send u home. sms with u.
thats all...
i enjoy this. n nvr regret..

我知道，有些事情，不是喜欢就可以这样做
我尽量控制我自己对你的一切感觉
尽量控制自己的心情
我真的希望有一天可以好像对以前的‘她’那样对你。
我现在唯一能做的。
就是看着你和他开开心心的过日子。
身为朋友的我，一定会为你感到高兴。
你会活得很快乐。
虽然他不会是一个一百分的男友，但他是唯一一个能让你快乐，开心的男人。
你们会很幸福的。
相信自己，相信他。
我不介意，你在伤心的时候来找我。
我一定会尽我所能，哄你开心。
这也是我，唯一能为你做的事。

-engleong-

a wrong decision

made a wrong decision yesterday..
bt nvr regret.
i real y hope i can better in future.. forget everything, n start my new life..
is juz a wrong timing.
study hard. study smart..
study for STPM..
stress go away..
n success will come to me..
haha..
blog is really a nice place for me to express a~~
feel better now..

-engleong-

stress? yes. i m..

haha.. studying in jing si now..
very boring a!!!
chemistry make me upset lol.
i dunno y i m so weak in form 6 chemistry..
i used to score high mark when i was form 5
i really dun understand wad it is talking about.
please save me..

currently stress n worry about another things.
which make me even more stress..
haiz.
i love to study in jing si..
with frens.
haha.. tan jie want to see my blogging process..
haha.. n now she is playing with my nike shoes..

stress.. pls go away..
i wan to study...
chemistry.. i muz defeat u!!!!!
i know i can..
n blog... u r a nice place for me to express my feeling..

-engleong-

rubbish!

arghhh!!!
i really cant believe that i m actually under those fucking rubbish!
shit la.. what the hell are they doing!!!
pls be more responsible and smart la..
dun even know how to plan things..
n wants me to be under u guys??
omg,, i think u r nt deserve to get the president pose yet..
go back home n train for 3 years first la..
luckily i m nt the BOC chairman. otherwise i think i will get myself killed becuz i will have 'YOU' to be my AJKs..
i really proud of my CLU AJK.. u all are the best..

i m juz expressing my my anger here becuz i have no where to show my anger..
i m so angry until i want to bring a knife n kill the stupid BOC chairman.

thing goes like this.
yesterday, a form 5 fren called me n told me thr is installation on monday
ok.. thats fine, wad the hell they nvr inform form 6 n even the form 6 head dun even know anything about it..
you r the one who holding high pose bt not me..
stupid ass!! how the hell u becum a VICE SECRETARY..
u dun even know about the plan??
i m jz a normal BOC member n u want me to inform u back..
shit la u!!

then, today... lai fun told me.
there is no installation for tomorrow..
HELLO, now is already 8 o clock at night..
can u guys pls be more efficient a?
tell earlier cannot is it?? is it will die?
n make us dunno wad to do..
i really dun understand.. how come VI so called cluster school can have such rubbish to be head of the board of chairman.

n now, they say it is cancelled. wad the hell wei!!
haiz.
i have gt ntg to say about this skul..
i really regret that i have made a wrong decision last year..
shuldnt have stay in VI to study..
haiz..
under these rubbishes!! i rather die wei!!!

gek!! pek cek!!!
ntg to say. good luck to VI la..

-engleong-

a new life, a new blog.

it has been half year i nvr blog.. becuz of the past relationship that hurts me alot.
she is the one who encouraged me to blog. n she is the one who made me feel stop to blog..
well, everything is passed n fine..
my life is back to normal with a new group of frens.
n most importantly, with a girl who really loves me more than everything she has.
Michelle Yee Pei Yen

today is saturday~
homealone n i have got nothing to do.
open back my previous blog which is the first blog that i have.
read a few ppl blog. n then suddenly have the urge to open another new blog for myself to express my feeling.
haha. funny duh~
long time nvr write blog makes me dunno wad to write.
juz knew that monday is installation day for all the presidents in my skul..
i really cant believe that i m under those stupid rubbishes who dunno how to do things at all..
i cant believe that they will choose a stupid rubbish bin to be a chairman among all the chairmen!!
i m so upset until i have been informed by them that monday is our installation day!
OMG.. really rubbish! hold high pose bt do nothing.
i really really really unsatisfy their eficiency of doing their job!
UPSET!!

forget about it~ it makes me super duper angry for now.
if i dun calm down now i think i will die becuz of heart attack!
yesterday, really had alot of fun with CLU ppl.
long time i nvr enjoy with them ady..
celebrated inn and 32 birthday at wongkok@pavillion.
played alot, talked alot, drink alot, ate alot..
i miss that moment.
anyway! happy birthday Wei Inn and Sum Yee..

exam is coming..
i study for dunno how many weeks ady lo~~
really feel abit stress when thinking of the exam.
i muz work hard to achieve my aim..
well.. 4.0 is nt my dream, bt is my target,my aim!

thats all for the first blog.. enjoy reading..
bt i think, not much ppl can read this thou. haha

-engleong-