i m back.

finally...
i m here again to express my feeling..
i m stress.. sad.. emo..
all these things are back to me again..
n i m really back.. the real me.. the emoness, negatively thinker..
this is so sad...
i think i lost a fren.. i disappoint her for thousand time..
n finally she gv up on me..
haha..
shuldnt blame anyone.
i m the one who really make mistake this time..
this is nt a reason for me to be like that..
i noe that my weakness..
i trying to overcome it.. i m trying to solve it so that i can change myself totally..
bt too bad.. i cant.. even u started to feel annoy..
n i will still held by the FIRST her..
i still cant let go..
mayb u r right..
haha.
my life is so funny!!!

-engleong-

the unimportant one.

its time to blog again..
means i m still emo. haha
i juz cant stand it anymore..
y m i falling deeply n nvr pull myself up..
ya. i m suffer..
i really cant accept that i will be falling for a u.
which is the most wrong thing that i ever did in my life..
i promised.. nt to be the third party..
i wont. n i really wont.
bt y cant things juz go smooth and normal like how i treated u be4 he came back to KL??
i really feel happy at this moment..
i nvr request for anything.
juz wish to be with u.. study together with u.
hang out together with u..
send u home. sms with u.
thats all...
i enjoy this. n nvr regret..

我知道，有些事情，不是喜欢就可以这样做
我尽量控制我自己对你的一切感觉
尽量控制自己的心情
我真的希望有一天可以好像对以前的‘她’那样对你。
我现在唯一能做的。
就是看着你和他开开心心的过日子。
身为朋友的我，一定会为你感到高兴。
你会活得很快乐。
虽然他不会是一个一百分的男友，但他是唯一一个能让你快乐，开心的男人。
你们会很幸福的。
相信自己，相信他。
我不介意，你在伤心的时候来找我。
我一定会尽我所能，哄你开心。
这也是我，唯一能为你做的事。

-engleong-

a wrong decision

made a wrong decision yesterday..
bt nvr regret.
i real y hope i can better in future.. forget everything, n start my new life..
is juz a wrong timing.
study hard. study smart..
study for STPM..
stress go away..
n success will come to me..
haha..
blog is really a nice place for me to express a~~
feel better now..

-engleong-

stress? yes. i m..

haha.. studying in jing si now..
very boring a!!!
chemistry make me upset lol.
i dunno y i m so weak in form 6 chemistry..
i used to score high mark when i was form 5
i really dun understand wad it is talking about.
please save me..

currently stress n worry about another things.
which make me even more stress..
haiz.
i love to study in jing si..
with frens.
haha.. tan jie want to see my blogging process..
haha.. n now she is playing with my nike shoes..

stress.. pls go away..
i wan to study...
chemistry.. i muz defeat u!!!!!
i know i can..
n blog... u r a nice place for me to express my feeling..

-engleong-

rubbish!

arghhh!!!
i really cant believe that i m actually under those fucking rubbish!
shit la.. what the hell are they doing!!!
pls be more responsible and smart la..
dun even know how to plan things..
n wants me to be under u guys??
omg,, i think u r nt deserve to get the president pose yet..
go back home n train for 3 years first la..
luckily i m nt the BOC chairman. otherwise i think i will get myself killed becuz i will have 'YOU' to be my AJKs..
i really proud of my CLU AJK.. u all are the best..

i m juz expressing my my anger here becuz i have no where to show my anger..
i m so angry until i want to bring a knife n kill the stupid BOC chairman.

thing goes like this.
yesterday, a form 5 fren called me n told me thr is installation on monday
ok.. thats fine, wad the hell they nvr inform form 6 n even the form 6 head dun even know anything about it..
you r the one who holding high pose bt not me..
stupid ass!! how the hell u becum a VICE SECRETARY..
u dun even know about the plan??
i m jz a normal BOC member n u want me to inform u back..
shit la u!!

then, today... lai fun told me.
there is no installation for tomorrow..
HELLO, now is already 8 o clock at night..
can u guys pls be more efficient a?
tell earlier cannot is it?? is it will die?
n make us dunno wad to do..
i really dun understand.. how come VI so called cluster school can have such rubbish to be head of the board of chairman.

n now, they say it is cancelled. wad the hell wei!!
haiz.
i have gt ntg to say about this skul..
i really regret that i have made a wrong decision last year..
shuldnt have stay in VI to study..
haiz..
under these rubbishes!! i rather die wei!!!

gek!! pek cek!!!
ntg to say. good luck to VI la..

-engleong-

a new life, a new blog.

it has been half year i nvr blog.. becuz of the past relationship that hurts me alot.
she is the one who encouraged me to blog. n she is the one who made me feel stop to blog..
well, everything is passed n fine..
my life is back to normal with a new group of frens.
n most importantly, with a girl who really loves me more than everything she has.
Michelle Yee Pei Yen

today is saturday~
homealone n i have got nothing to do.
open back my previous blog which is the first blog that i have.
read a few ppl blog. n then suddenly have the urge to open another new blog for myself to express my feeling.
haha. funny duh~
long time nvr write blog makes me dunno wad to write.
juz knew that monday is installation day for all the presidents in my skul..
i really cant believe that i m under those stupid rubbishes who dunno how to do things at all..
i cant believe that they will choose a stupid rubbish bin to be a chairman among all the chairmen!!
i m so upset until i have been informed by them that monday is our installation day!
OMG.. really rubbish! hold high pose bt do nothing.
i really really really unsatisfy their eficiency of doing their job!
UPSET!!

forget about it~ it makes me super duper angry for now.
if i dun calm down now i think i will die becuz of heart attack!
yesterday, really had alot of fun with CLU ppl.
long time i nvr enjoy with them ady..
celebrated inn and 32 birthday at wongkok@pavillion.
played alot, talked alot, drink alot, ate alot..
i miss that moment.
anyway! happy birthday Wei Inn and Sum Yee..

exam is coming..
i study for dunno how many weeks ady lo~~
really feel abit stress when thinking of the exam.
i muz work hard to achieve my aim..
well.. 4.0 is nt my dream, bt is my target,my aim!

thats all for the first blog.. enjoy reading..
bt i think, not much ppl can read this thou. haha

-engleong-